Politics and the English Language

In the reading Politics and the English Language by George Orwell nothing really stood out to me. It was very difficult for me to even understand what he was trying to explain or come across. As I read it on my own I found myself looking up words in the dictionary and even after doing that I couldn't comprehend what he was trying to say. During class as we read I thought it would have helped, but it didn't. We found out the summary which he is trying to argue against, which is "Underneath this lies the half-conscious belief that language is a natural growth and not an instrument which we shape for our own purposes." Even after talking about it in class I still don't seem to understand what he is truly trying to say. The thesis is "It becomes ugly and inaccurate because our thoughts are foolish, but the slovenliness of our language makes it easier for us to have foolish thoughts." Even when he says the thesis I feel like he talks around what he is trying to say. He uses big words and talks very educated which is what I thought he said not to do. He states that it's not correct to try to elongate your words and statements, but he does that exact thing. I have a feeling this book is going to take me a long time to read and I;m not going to enjoy it.